last couple of weeks have been pretty rubbish (apart from bridesmaiding it up at an extremly lavish wedding!)
my friend was assulted in castle park for, essentially, wearing black and having long hair (it was a he) which means i have lost a lot of hope in the public of colchester.
not only this but my grandad has been taken into hospital for a heart bypass (which we werent sure he was going to get because of him having gaut aswell) but he managed to get through the operation, but is still in lots of pain and wont eat anything. this is the grandparent to which i am closest and am so scared that something bad is going to happen with out me getting to say goodbye (am crying just thinking about it)
along with all this, the 'friends' i go to college with have as good as started ignoring me. i never see them, i never talk to them, the only friends i have are friends with my boyfriend which would be a big problem if it were to end!
i feel really lonely, because i dont have any female friends to talk about girly things with!its just a bit lame to be honest.
after 7 years of being with some of these people i no longer feel like i have any connection with these people. its terribly depressing
i might blog again in a minute but this is getting a bit long! lol
